prarurijus

Hello! There are so many things I just can’t say about me. Sometimes I just try acting like someone I don’t want to be just because I hate knowing people couldn’t like the way I am. I’m not so cute or nice like you think I would be but I try my best. I to often changed my personality for other people and I hardly show my real face but I’m already tired of it. I try really hard to go the right way but I always end in misery. I never hide my emotions because I don’t want to hide from someone how I REALLY feel and that makes me cranky and bitchy all the time. I’m getting jealous and mad at people to easily. I walk blind through my life and think the whole world should only turn around me forgetting other people have their own life. I need attention all the time and if I don’t get what I want then I’m really depressed and mean. I hate the suspension I have about my life. It’s like I would live in my own world and when I get to real I’m very pissy. I fuck up a lot and nothing goes right in my life but I’m already used to it! I have a way of hurting other people only to make myself feel better. I feel bad all the time and I always feel the need to apologize. I’m hurting at the moment and I’m drinking to take my pain away even though it’s the wrong way. I start to argue without knowing the consequences of it. I’m in love and I just can’t tell that person how I really feel out of fear I could push that person against the wall. I’m living with a Shadow overhead!




'll probably end up giving up on you, before you can even have a chance to give up on me. I've been let down, and smashed to pieces, I've gained some, and lost some. I'm just like you, filled with problems and insecurities, but I manage. Your trust means nothing to me. I am not your sex symbol, and I am not your "baby". I dont want your drama, ive got my own. My business isnt your business I'm like a friggin drug, one talk with me ur addicted u can never go back. Trust me, you cant even hate me. I really cherish everything i have had to go through. it all has made me the person i am today. i like boys. i have lots of friends. i have lots of enemies. most of you, i hate. people sometimes refer to me as a, "fairy tale boy." Main reason, i am the kid you dream about. I wont date almost all of you fucks, sorry. im the kid who can look at someone crying, and make them laugh. I'm that freak that stares at you from afar. make you wonder what I'm thinking. I'm amazing.I am "emo" sensitive. I fall in love easily. I am so gansta, your just jealous niggaz. Yes i have cut before... there is more to me than looks! when i am in a bad mood i tend to think: im a lying, backstabbing cunt. dont trust me, dont like me. i'll just end up fucking you over like the rest. dont worry thats only on my bad days. i can be cocky sometimes. i hate walking and public transportation. I just try to take shit a day at a time. I will blow your mind with my special ability of making you smile. I tend to be laid back.